Apotheosis

I fall fast like nightingales in winter's cold sharp grasp
The ground approaches faster
With every struggle to lift your wings to fly again
But with every attempt comes failure
It natural
I can't pretend to think that all this effort will pay off anymore
I'm content with losing as long as this all finally just goes away

I've lost her
I stripped her life away with my own hands
I watched my world slip through the cracks
Alone, and I'm
Feeling conscious for the very first time
Now I'll pave the way into this corrupted mind
I'm going farther than I've ever tried
Now I've found a way to end this precious life

My heart is just a pulse away from bursting out through my chest
Cold fear shoots through my veins like shock waves,
My God this can't be happening
And now its too late,
I can't stop this anymore
Regret, regret, regret, regret!

"How the hell did I end up here?
I can't recall this place at all
Is this my imagination?
Or was that my dying breath?"

I'm lost here
I'll take my life away of my own free will
It has become so clear, as I'm
Feeling conscious for the very first time
Now I'll pave the way into this corrupted mind
I'm going farther than I've ever tried
Now I've found a way to end this precious life