I'd Rather You Be a Memory

Should I call
I've been missing you a little bit more
These past few days have been a little bit tough
On me but I don't want you to know
What's worse
The fact that I was just okay being hurt
Or that I still sometimes fall asleep to the smell of your clothes

And I appreciate
That you made me feel enough for you
It might've been a mistake but
You made me happy
Did I make you happy too

At least I can say that I tried
Though nothing about us was right
I overlooked the signs so we could have more time
I just delayed the goodbye

I knew we wouldn't work out
But I still broke my walls down
I'd rather you be a memory
Than a what if to me

Moving on
But every time I hear my text tone
I hope to see the letters that make up your name
Show up on my phone

Never thought
I'd end up falling for you so hard
That you would be my inspiration
Every time I wrote a song

I'll tell myself I'm over you
Finally closed the door on you
But I still keep my keys in the same hiding spot
That you chose for me
We know that's where they'll always be

At least I can say that I tried
Though nothing about us was right
I overlooked the signs so we could have more time
I just delayed the goodbye

I knew we wouldn't work out
But I still broke my walls down
I'd rather you be a memory
Than a what if to me