If You Only Knew

C
I've been trying so hard to survive
          G6/B
Sometimes I think that I wanna die
Dm
I feel so fucking guilty cuz god
                  F
I'm so lucky to live my life

C
So I keep all the pain to myself
         G6/B
Losing faith but nobody can tell
         Dm
Mom, I don't want you worried cuz 
that would just hurt me
        F             Fm
So I pretend I'm fine

              C
If you only knew
What my mind is telling me I should 
G
do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my 
 Dm
room here tonight
                        F
I'm too sad to cry it's true
         C
If you knew

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All the shit my brain is putting me 
   G
through
You'd come running over straight to 
    Dm
my room here tonight
                       F7M
I'm sorry but I need you
              C
If you only knew

C
I wish I was somebody else
         G6/B
I'm constantly overwhelmed
           Dm                      
Now I'm falling again getting drunk
           Em/B
 with some friends
         F
It's a silent cry for help
              Am                  
I wanna get better, I want you to 
G
know
                 F
That I can't do this on my own

              C
If you only knew
                                 G
What my mind is telling me I should 
do
That I'm drunk and all alone in  my 
  Dm
room here tonight
     F                    G
I'm too sad to cry it's true
              C
If you only knew
All the shit my brain is putting me 
   G
through
You'd come running over straight to 
    Dm
my room here tonight
                    F
I'm sorry but I need you

                      C
Take me out of this hell
               G
Oh, somebody help
                     Dm
Take me out of this hell
                F
Oh, I'm not myself

C                              
I wanna tell you what my mind is 
                       Em/B
telling me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my 
  Dm
room here tonight
                    C           F
I'm too sad to cry but I want to

Oh, if you only knew