Everleave

I make your coffee, pack your lunch
I've never heard: Good morning, beautiful
I always thought I asked too much
Is my fairytale idea of love delusional?
And you've got no idea I'm drowning
Mind is racing, heart is pounding
Is today the day I walk away?

Maybe I can hurt forever if it keeps you happy
'Cause there are days I think we'll be alright
But I can't keep pouring from a cup so empty
Then turn my back and try to sleep at night
If nothing changes, I might break
I don't think you believe
I'll ever leave

Standing at the kitchen sink, I wonder if you'll ask about my day
I'm washing off your dinner plate and all I see is a decade down the drain
And you've got no idea I'm drowning
Mind is racing, heart is pounding
Is today the day I walk away?

I thought I could hurt forever if it kept you happy
'Cause there were days I thought we'd be alright
But I can't keep pouring from a cup so empty
Then turn my back and try to sleep at night
If nothing changed, I said I'd break
I know you don't believe
I'll ever leave

Now I'm not leaving lights on, I left them on for too long
I'm not wrong for this and one day it'll all make sense
For every night you heard me plead
If one more reason's what you need
I guess me at twenty-one and thirty-one
Just wanted different things

I thought I could hurt forever if it kept you happy
But now I know we'll never be alright
But I can't keep pouring from a cup so empty
Then turn my back and try to sleep at night
Oh, oh-oh-oh
Nothing changed, I had to break
To make myself believe
I'd ever leave
I'd ever leave
I thought I'd never leave