Ordinary

I notice how she looks at me
But I pretend that I don't see
It's easier if I let the tension subside
I've seen it in the books I read
A magic that you can not see
There's no limitations
They wear it with pride

But the characters I read never act or look like me
I can't depend on them to lead me through the right door
And what's the point of falling when I know I'm only stalling
Cause I have to go back home

Where I'm just one in the herd
Tripping over my words
Trying hard to go with the grain
Keeping the quirks in my brain
I'm on the brink of discovery I think
But what if I'm dreaming?
That's what it seems like

Cause this girl thinks I'm part of her world
And that new territory's scary
If I turn the handle, am I asking for a scandal?
Should I try to be ordinary?

I've always been a little odd
The only pea inside the pod
That's not an expression I'm guessing
Oh well
See that's exactly what I mean!
I'm just as awkward as I seem
Plus she makes me nervous
I hope she can't tell

What is it she sees in this cluster clump of me?
Or, could it maybe be I'm going crazy?
And hey! Who am I kidding?
This isn't some sweet beginning
Just a detour to the end!

Then back to the herd
Tripping over my words
Trying hard to go with the grain
Keeping the quirks in my brain
I'm on the brink of discovery I think
But what if I'm dreaming?

Do I rewind? Induce amnesia?
Pretend I didn't see her?
Succumb to stupid fear?
Or just believe in my heart? (Heart)
Why play a part?

Why follow the herd?
Why not trust in my words?
Don't wanna go with the grain!
Why try to make myself plain?
I'm on the brink of rediscovery I think!
So what if I'm dreaming?
I like the scene that I'm in!

And this girl is a part of this world
The thought of being normal is far more scary
I'll be brave and I'll be kind
I'll make a choice and change my mind
I will mess up all the time
They'll say I'm weird but I'll be fine
I'll be anything but ordinary!