Choose to Be

I wasn't expecting you
you took me by surprise
and I don't know if you can see it
but it's right behind my eyes
the answer to a question
that I didn't know I'd asked
and you know
I didn't believe the tides
could wash over me so fast

and I've never
seen this before
and I've seen so much
oh god I wonder what it takes
to understand happiness

and I
am standing on the edge
and I'm not afraid to fall
I'm not dying
I'm not hiding
I am not anything at all
but this time

I choose to be happy

you know I never believed
that I could have something good
didn't think that it was possible
didn't think I could
but now I'm kicking down these walls
and you're tearing at these chains
and I am starting to believe
that I must be insane

cause I've
never seen you before
and I've seen so much
oh god I wonder what it takes
to understand happiness

and I
am standing on the edge
and I'm not afraid to fall

I'm not dying
I'm not hiding
I am not anything at all
but falling

and I don't care where I land
I'm falling
and now I feel like I can stand

cause this time
I choose to be