Ambivalence

Restart, rewind
Take me back to a better time
Bearing the weight of the world
I feel the pressure until I melt down
Until I melt down

Brain turbulence takes its toll
So many shards of jarring thoughts
And you know I just don't want to be alone
I just don't want to be alone

I'll chase the butterfly that made it all this way
Bring me to the light with no words left to say
I keep blaming myself until I melt down

A never-ending glow
Of white noise and you know
I'm deaf to the sound and blind to it all
Static friend or foe, there's no hope anymore

I'll chase the butterfly that made it all this way
Bring me to the light with no words left to say
I keep blaming myself until I melt down

I know there's something wrong with me
Am I supposed to figure it all out?
Why don't I feel like you?
Why can't I think like you?
I keep blaming myself until I melt down

Restart, rewind until I melt down
Take me back until I melt down
Bearing the weight until I melt down
I feel the pressure until I melt down

I'll chase the butterfly that made it all this way
Bring me to the light with no words left to say
I keep blaming myself until I melt down

I know there's something wrong with me
I know there's something wrong with me
Am I supposed to figure it all out?
Am I supposed to figure it all out?
Why don't I feel like you?
Why can't I think like you?
I keep blaming myself until I melt down