Deliverance for the Damned

A world of color returns
Feeling of warmth renewed
Senses return to what they once were prior to
Joining the dead here in this place
Start to remember something other than pain

Euphoria calls
Go down to ascend
Medicated bliss
Rapture is achieved

And just maybe the answer is not
To wait for help but go and find it
This introduction to madness seems to have cured
And filled the hollow space within me

I've been looking for a way to
Remember who I once was
Mask the pain and overflow
Take the reins by giving in
Self-inflicted liberty
Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth
Hold on tight or lose control
And spiral out and slip away

Drunken, drugged up, splendid ecstasy

I'm alive
For the first time in so long
Invincible, immaculate and free from everything
That dragged me down like tons of brick
A sensational new emotion to abuse

And just maybe the truth of it all
Is I chose to feel this pain within
In mania, depressed me seems a fool
As I fill this hollow space within me

I've been looking for a way to
Remember who I once was
Mask the pain and overflow
Take the reins by giving in
Self-inflicted liberty
Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth
Hold on tight or lose control
And spiral out and slip away

Panicked, terror-stricken ecstasy
Once again lose what's me

The grip on my sanity is loosened
As the pain flows freely from my lips
And through this body until I am free

Consciousness is pulled back, now see the body from afar as it stumbles
Making the same mistake again on repeat, each time feeling better yet worse

With a sick satisfaction
I drown myself in the poison that numbs yet exacerbates
Each second that passes brings closer the nauseated comfort that I crave
Time melts
Behind me is loss, before is the same
I shake, I quiver, I fall
Behind me is loss, before is the same
I bow, I bend, I break

I am now nothing
Just a pile of firing nerves
Whose synapses flare, and only crave more
There's no solace in this fleeting break
This euphoric reprieve
No deliverance for the damned

I've been looking
I've been looking for a way to
Remember who I once was
Mask the pain and overflow
Take the reins by giving in
Self-inflicted liberty
Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth
Hold on tight or lose control
And spiral out and slip away