This Pain

I try to be so strong, i tell them what they want to hear
Feels like it’s been so long, and i wish you were still here

I’m not as okay as i like to say
And this pain is more than they know,
More than i show. it hurts everyday

Your heart, it ticked like a clock. but i felt your love even when it stopped
When i leaned into your cold, pale skin, i knew that death must come for new life to begin

And now i want to fly away with you, to a place where all things old are made brand new

I still remember that day like yesterday when you were lifted up and carried away
You closed your eyes and fell asleep in perfect peace, so bittersweet cause how i long to celebrate

I try to be so strong, i tell them what they want to hear
And i know it won’t be long, but i still wish you were here