The cup and the trigger

In every cup of wine
I take risk with my life
In every trigger click
from always run away

Loneliness, remember me to be
Between, the sound of silence
That it ripped all my dreams
That it ripped all my tears

Everything, I want
Always was, that time
Of the last, trigger click
I don't, remember to hear

Then I killed myself
I hugged the beauty death
From the life, I gone away
but, I never gone, but I never back!