Anxious Hum

It took me a long time
But I'm figuring out why
My success always feels like a crime

I don’t belong here
But I'm making it work somehow
Let my vision blur to the point where
It all fits when I let it just pan out
Today was a good day
I wish that they could all be like this
But when you struggle with anxiety
It’s so hard to stay positive

It took me a long time
But I'm figuring out why
My success always feels like a crime

It’s when I get home
Take off the mask I give the world outside
When I'm all alone
When the ache sets in, and I can’t keep the shaking inside
It’s like a piece of me steps out
Helps me recall all of the things I've done wrong
It’s like the ghost of ever present doubt
And it sings a never never ending song

Let me out
It hums off key in me
Rooted in my throat
It strains against my teeth
The air in this room chokes me

It took me a long time
But I'm figuring out why
My success always felt like a crime

I get caught in my own mind
It says that I'm wrong all of the time
But it’s been my friends
That never leave me behind
They are my lifeline
They’re always quick to remind
It’s okay to ask for help
When your Sun doesn’t shine