A Nice Soft Painless Lie

Huh, a text message from beep
Dear Andres, I have to do what's best for my mental health
I always wonder why we never worked because
We could've been something great
I need to accept that you and I are a masterpiece
That'll never be finished

I've been gaining weight in my stomach and my face
It must be my age 'cause my habits haven't changed
Since I've been 18
It's been a series of long term relationships
And chasing my dreams in dive bars across the country
I went from hanging at Whitney's apartment
To working at restaurants every night
These days I'm chilling at Cameron's apartment
And music is paying my bills
But shit hasn't changed that much, has it? Has it?

Maybe what I'm hungry for
Was never gunna be listed on the menu
Maybe what I'm hungry for
Was never gunna be listed on the menu

Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah, ah, ah, ah

I've been losing faith in myself and this place
Do I look like someone
Who'd wanna remember anything? Ooh-ooh
See, I haven't talked to Jade since I ran into her
A few months back at Tommy's Place
The conversation started great until she got reminded that I, uh
I'm a selfish bastard (got reminded that we all have strayed)
That shit happened years ago anyways
I miss the Summers when Harry and I would just stay up all night
Talking girls over wine in a bag, in a box

Maybe what I'm hungry for
Was never gunna be listed on the menu
Maybe what I'm hungry for
Was never gunna be listed on the menu

Searching for a meaning
Alive but heart's not beating
This world's so unappealing
But I'm in bed still dreaming
See, being alone is just a way of life
'Cause nowadays everything feels so empty
Look out the window and I'm horrified
Nobody's making any sense and I'm just

Searching for a meaning
Alive but heart's not beating
This world's so unappealing
But I'm in bed still dreaming