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I can't remember the last time I said I loved you
Maybe because I'm afraid of being with you
I can't remember the last time I saw you smile
Suppose it's because I'm confusing you
You never lied to me
You always tried for me
You never once let me down
I always lied to you
I never tried for you
I've completely let you down
When I think about our future I just stop thinking
Your eyes see right through me my heart stops beating
Now don't full on hate me I just need a little time
I know I disappoint you but it's better than telling a lie
No I don't really hate you you'll just cry a little less this time
Getting use to my indecision fall back to what I know I'm missing