Cancerous

Only in the recesses of my mind
I can never forget this

Like a cancer that never leaves this body
I'll lose all my hair fighting you

I rebuild & regrow
Yet a piece of you still remains

I spend most of my days
With a smile on my face
But in the depths of sleep
You reveal yourself
In the most viscous of ways

You torment me at night
& leave me silent for days
I wish for this cancerous being
To leave & just go away

Stay away
Just go on your own way

I offered you up
Needed some closure
I'll reconstruct your fucking neck
The writing on your walls is false
So why don't you live it?

I feel the need to spit in your face
So badly
I want to spit in your fucking face

Terrible numbness consumes my mornings
Until I've satisfied the coping
With this mourning

Wash me away & leave me for the wasps
I need to know have you found happiness
Or finally uncovered your cowardice

You are the plague
Your future looks so vague

Are we living?
Are we living?
Or are we dying?
Are we dying?
Are we the lost?
Are we the lost?
Or are we just the forgotten?

This bane & burden
This calamity
This pestilence

We are the cure

You are cancerous
I've had enough of this
You are cancerous
We've had enough of this