Niggardly (Blocked Call)

Whatever happened to not caring?
Just not caring
Thirty missed calls
Sixty minute sprawl
Line stepper holding long shadow
Duck and parry
Shouldn't be this hard
We're not splitting atoms
String sounds can make people turn another way, today
Laid a feather on a scale and ripped my heart out
Weigh it up
LED numeric trigger, sucking air out of my lungs quicker
Blocked call, voicemail still hit ya
Like building walls
And throwing dead pigeons over
I need a bigger ladder and a blowgun for the floaters

This Tuesday: Hank Mobley to Bill Hardman
Village Vanguard, Monday
From Tuesday, Sonny Rollins

Admittedly niggardly
I won't even give these niggas bad energy
I peep then commit it to memory
I sleep knowing these niggas is dead to me
I eat knowing I'm starving my enemies
The aperitif bittersweet, no pleasure
My heart pump ketamine
My heart pump ketamine

When you have it, it's not about fast or slow
It's the flow of traffic
Talk till you blue in the face, bro
It's like UPS, they still gon' fuck up the package
I'd rather bring it myself
All I had was an address in Maspeth
But I know that's not really the address
Knelt to worship, sis hiked up her habit
Think in cursive, spit jagged fragments
Every word out my mouth drag my people backwards
Big tooly I deal with
Niggas green around the gills, niggas sick
Niggas can say what they like but if we ever did the deal
Everybody got they split (er'ybody)
Down to the last red cent
Down to the last
I don't steal, cheat, nuh see it?
No matter what the weak heart say

Admittedly niggardly
I won't even give these niggas bad energy
I peep then commit it to memory
I sleep knowing these niggas is dead to me
I eat knowing I'm starving my enemies
The aperitif bittersweet, no pleasure
My heart pump ketamine
My heart pump ketamine

I write when my baby's asleep
I sit in the room in the dark
I listen to him breathe
I walk 'em to school, then the park
Hold they little hands when we cross the street
I think about my brothers that's long gone and this was all they ever dreamed (all they ever dreamed)
People I lost to COVID-19 but it ain't do a thing to the fiends
I have to admit I enjoy watching you wander the wilderness
You betrayed your brother, burnt every bridge
When your end come, you'll be alone
When the end come I'll actually answer the phone just to drink your pain (yup)
God marked Cain so nobody could hurt him
Stained by that first murder
Hard rain, face upturned
A Sun-blackened goat herder
7. 62 in the bandolier, the Sahara stretch
Fear follow you home, a cuckoo in the nest
Voodoo the cause of death, I got that new-new fresh
I got no use for light deps
I shine a light in the depths
It sound dark but I'm Easy
Devil in a Blue Dress

Admittedly niggardly
I won't even give these niggas bad energy
I peep then commit it to memory
I sleep knowing these niggas is dead to me
I eat knowing I'm starving my enemies
The aperitif bittersweet, no pleasure
My heart pump ketamine
My heart pump ketamine

I have to change my phone card, though
Okay?
I'll holla at you in about, maybe a couple months