Genetic Lottery

I couldn't tell you where the time went
And I know I'm still young, but you'd think I'm dying
The way me and my friends talk
We spend more time reminiscing than we do ever existing
There are no new memories we want

Been through the wringer
Called it mature for your age
Like in the winter
When it gets dark in the days
Don't know if I don't remember, or if I just can't remember
I'm afraid there's no other way

So I fucked around, ill-prepared to find out
If I've wasted oxygen, time, and/or space
Hollow hand-me-downs
You felt sick to be proud
First of the family to die of old age

And when I'm brain dead
Would you still sleep in my bed?
Don't got much time left
Till the voices start to make sense
I think I've lost a whole lot, now that's including the plot
If I knew how or when this would end
Well, I'd be laying here
Too afraid to move till then

So I fucked around, ill-prepared to find out
If I've wasted oxygen, time, and/or space
Hollow hand-me-downs
You felt sick to be proud
First of the family to die of old age

Resolved to go on your own terms to prove
You had control over anything
Chose the most bold way to be brave

Said I don't understand, and I don't think that I can
How could you feel like you're better for it?
If this all helped you build character
How are you the best person I have ever met?
I have a feeling wherever you end up, you won't like where you go
You'd be too fearful of falling, but the lows are too low
The lows are too low
But give it some time, and you'll be running the show
And if you're in the room with me, you'd pick up all of my clothes
And if you're in the room with me, I hope you don't mind staying home

I don't understand, and I don't think that I can
How could you feel like you're better for it?
If this all helped you build character
How are you the best person I have ever met?