Cancer

Fresh air slips out of my lungs way too fast
The breaths are getting smaller by each time
The drugs are slowing me down
I really can't think as fast anymore
I am afraid all the time and panic is always at my front door

You once told me
I know it hurts like fuck, but I hope you well enjoy it
You took my virginity
You were my first and you will be my last
I can do nothing but thank you for all that you have done

No-one can take away what you are
There were so many things I feel that I should have said

But God has taken that away from me, he's left me for dead
I hope that you will read this, and I hope that you will understand
I did everything to fight this cancer, but everyone needs to die
I am so sorry for leaving you all alone
Please don't be angry with me when I am dead and gone

I am so afraid of dying. The pain has been going on for far too long
I can almost hear them screaming my name from above

I still Love you