What I Want

I don't even need one hand to count my real friends
It's getting kinda lonely out here
I guess that I wished that by twenty-six
The picture would be a bit more clear
I had a five-year plan, working under the man
Remind me why I left to follow
A dream that might make me lose my mind
'Cause I don't know where I'll be tomorrow

I'm tryna trust the plan
What plan?
Oh, yeah, I don't even know
I'm tryna understand
What I want
And what I don't 'cause

I wanna be known but don't wanna know fame
I wanna be held but I don't wanna be saved
I wanna feel love without any of the pain
I wanna hate him but don't wanna stay mad
I wanna slow down but I don't wanna step back
I wanna feel good without any of the bad
That's what I want
I want that

I tried self-help but didn't end well
I thought it might make me stronger
But I still don't know when it's time to let go
Or try just a little bit harder
You say live in the moment but keep on growing
I find it a little confusing
Enjoy where you are but not for too long
'Cause you gotta still keep on moving

I'm tryna trust the plan
What plan?
I don't even know
I'm tryna understand
What I want
And what I don't 'cause

I wanna be known but don't wanna know fame
I wanna be held but I don't wanna be saved
I wanna feel love without any of the pain
I wanna hate him but don't wanna stay mad
I wanna slow down but I don't wanna step back
I wanna feel good without any of the bad
That's what I want
I want that

That's what I want, that's what I want, that's what I want
(I want that)
That's what I want, that's what I want, that's what I want

I wanna be cool but I've never known chill
I wanna be fine without any of the pills
I wanna feel only the things that I wanna feel
Do you feel?
I wanna hate him but don't wanna stay mad
I wanna slow down but I don't wanna step back
I wanna feel good without any of the bad
That's what I want
I want that

That's what I want, that's what I want, that's what I want
(I want that)
That's what I want, that's what I want, that's what I want
I want that