2005

And you could lose yourself in this world, easy
I don’t want to regret that
We never had a name for anxiety then, you said
Whatever it was made me, me
And on our bikes we used to take the shortcut through the graveyard
Now I see your father stood talking to you there for hours
And I haven’t asked him how he’s doing
I haven’t visited 'cause I don’t know what to say, honestly

Writing on a Monday morning
This week feels like a mountain
While I’m still trying to decide if its best to hide behind my eyelids
And it's cold
When you’re gone you’re cold
His weakness gives you strength
Not always for good
Drifting into hell
You think I can’t see
It’s over
Like my boy from the corner
Like mummies corolla
Like those nights in Paris
Rip them off these four walls like posters
Wonder if life is about staying true
While watching the sky change on you
Spread your wings or lose your inhibitions for a moment or two
You're floating
If we make it through this
We’ll make it through anything
I spent too many night here, twisting and turning
In the corner of a corner
And when the truth capsizes
Will you blame the tide or the timing
She loves you regardless
You feel alone in the darkness
In the frame
And if the way forwards is backwards
Back down those country lanes
Back staring through that window pane
While the sun sets on all we made
The bigger picture’s what we ran through
And chose to leave behind
Frustrating how the truth was the intention behind our divide

'Cause she’s got lots of love
And she’s staring at you in the dark
She got lots of words that’ve been tearing you apart
Welcome to the end of the place you call home
Made hell for the highs, to try and fall through a moment
Your faithful eyes
I just want to trust like you do
Maybe I could stay there with you
The world looks so unkind from up here though
Hero

These hands are trembling
That word was heaven sent
I smashed this mirror
In one moment I reached for everything i’d ever felt
These conversations
Where we prioritise listening
Until our words are genuine and relevant
Still caught between two worlds
That raised me and framed my ambivalence
I still need that first line of space
Repeated by a stranger
I can’t confide in those too close who treat help
As if it were a favour
He’s outgrowing expectations and familiar faces
Witnessed you throw him to the waves
Just to try save him while he was drowning

I'm floating
If we make it through this
We’ll make it through anything
I spent too many nights here twisting and turning
In the corner of a corner
And when the truth capsizes
Will you blame the tide or the timing
You love her, regardless
You feel alone in the darkness
In the frame
And if the way forwards is backwards
Back down those country lanes
Back staring through that window pane
While the sun sets on all we made
The bigger picture’s what we ran through
And chose to leave behind
Frustrating how the truth was the intention was behind our divide

I fell through
It feels like you
Everything
You, feel

'Cause she’s got lots of love
And she’s staring at you in the dark
She got lots of words that’ve been tearing you apart
Welcome to the end of the place you call home
Made hell for the highs, to try and fall through a moment
Your faithful eyes
I just want to trust like you do
Maybe I could stay there with you
The world looks so unkind from up here though