94 Dreaming

Three, four
Back to serious voice

The frame ain’t the same no more is it
I painted this picture and let the words reflect my image
Sometimes the truth hurts
Like the first line of this verse
I expected too much
Thinking they were just like me
I’ve got to start being selfish
Helping others left me helpless
When a river meets the stream
'Til the sky falls to its knees
And I could sit here for hours
This perspective
Trespassing thoughts
Behind locked doors
That belong to thrown away keys
You see
Needing me or need me not
Dictates your smile
Falling into lines like I ain’t heard from you in a while
I’ll be whoever you want
Providing you put your mind to it
Try'na buy my freedom
Should it afford my pride
I wish I could believe you
But I can’t
There's too much on my plate
Pour me another glass
Drowning in these sorrows
'Till I found peace with my past
Drawn into a world where the flower is defined by the vase
And that’s young me by the windowsill
With questions that view can’t answer
Guess it’s too early to say
If what we've made are mistakes
You just wanna
Lose your mind to find your soul
I just need to
See the world before I call this home
I used to run riot when I was young
Confused, try'na distinguish where someone like me belongs
When did I become the man
The cool kid, I was never that

When they’ve learnt to love you for all but yourself
Your deluded wealth undermines your coming so far
Shattered glass
Family portrait suddenly finds the present
As we pick the past up
And recall it as heaven
It’s never seemed so insignificant
Everything you worked for
Too precious to enjoy
Ourselves we avoid
These thoughts we employ
Too much noise
We just listen for the silence
That sits between the sirens

And I just found a place that no-one else knows
Watch the sky reach 'til it lets go
I’ve never been afraid to close my eyes before
They’ll paint you how they want to in the end
I knew that you’d show
Been caught up where you found me before
Wanna go
Somewhere only we would know

You said "I thought I told you to stop dreaming"
But your reality never gave me the reason
To stop believing
I chose the darkest path
To emancipate my own feelings
Clouding the vision
Distorting the meaning
I mean its clearer now than ever
Growing up under pressure
Nothing's ever promised
A slave for the word better
If you see me you don’t know me
Stop pretending
You never attended
Not to mention
I was left to put to bed all of my questions

But I’ll sleep on it
Dream bigger
New frame of mind
The bigger picture
Fingers travel scriptures
'Till we capsize
I’ma keep running
We sinning
Pushed back to the beginning
The past speaking to me like a family 20 minute visit
Dreamt of this line last night
Stood at some height
Over the city, prepared to leave all these memories behind
Compromised by my desire to make it all on my own
You’ll begin to sink in when you’re stone
Yeah, we need a comparative perspective to be free
Happy despite all that you haven’t seen
Scared to look for answers
'Cause you know what they might be
94 Dreaming
Still looking for a mirror that I believe in

And I just found a place that no-one else knows
Watch the sky reach 'till it lets go
I’ve never been afraid to close my eyes before
They’ll paint you how they want to in the end
I knew that you’d show
I’ve been caught up where you found me before
Wanna go
Somewhere only we could know

When they’ve learnt to love you for all but yourself
Your deluded wealth undermines your coming so far
Shattered glass
Family portraits suddenly finds the present
As we pick the past up
And recall it as heaven
It’s never seemed so insignificant
Everything you worked for
Too precious to enjoy
Ourselves we avoid
These thoughts we employ
Too much noise
We just listen for the silence
That sits between the sirens