A For Andrew

I have an illness and it's called myself
I am so desperate
I'm getting in over my head
I regret so many things I've done
The past is to remind me how broken I am
How naive I was
I've suffered the consequences
This world is not for me
I've suffered the consequences
I've failed you
I've failed everyone

I've put so many things above you,
(but you still are always there for me)
I don't know who I am anymore
(If I even know who)

I was how naive I was
My head starts pounding
My body begins to burn
I'm tired
I'm beat down
And my hope is dying

I've suffered the consequences
This world is not for me
I've suffered the consequences
I've failed you
I've failed everyone

I've put so many things above you, but you still are always there for me
I don't know who I am anymore
(if I even know who I was)