IDWFA

I don't wanna fight anymore, with anyone
'Cause all the days are a golden shit for everyone
I only have happiness when I'm alone
But you don't run and stay with those shadows

Everyone smiles like they mean it
But we all lie and bleed in secret
I walk through noise with hollow steps
Nobody knows how loud it gets

I talk but no one hears a word I say
They laugh like I'm okay, but I decay
Every smile I fake just breaks me more
I close my eyes and hope I'm not here anymore

I'm not tired, I'm just gone
Breathing hurts when the nights are this long

So let me drown inside my head
Where all my thoughts just wish me dead
Don't need a hug, don't want your light
I sleep with pain, I wake with fright
Your love was cold, your hands were fake
You stayed for guilt, not for my sake

I text and stare at empty screens
Like I'm alive inside a dream
I beg for peace in silent screams
But even hell has softer themes

I'm not broken, just forgot
I fade in rooms where I once fought

So let me drown inside my head
Where all my thoughts just wish me dead
Don't need a hug, don't want your light
I sleep with pain, I wake with fright
Your love was cold, your hands were fake
You stayed for guilt, not for my sake

And if I vanish, would you see?
Or would you talk like I was free?
I'm just a shadow you forgot
A name you loved, then left to rot

I don't wanna fight anymore
Maybe I never, did at all
This golden world's just painted shit
And I'm too tired to handle it