A Perfect Son

If I show you the forgetfulness
What would you think?
Would you laugh or be ashamed of it?
I'm exhausted from smiling every single day
When I know the pain won't just go away

Every night I cannot sleep
Because my thoughts run so deep
They make me wanna choke
Cause I'm stuck in a black hole

My focus is no longer there, anyway
I don't know why I'm like this, I swear
It seems like I'm just ill, trust me
Just means I'm stressed

They want me to be normal
A perfect son
But my thoughts won't let me rot in peace
Why can't I just blow my brain and end it?

Damn