Eulogy

When I die, I want my ash shut out of a confetti cannon

She was a mess and she had regrets and
She let some people down
A wanna-be actress, insecure and jealous
A cunt when no one's around
And when I'm gone, if you think of me, play this
Am I wrong to beg for forgiveness?
She tried her best so please, just remember
Me for my intentions (ohh, ohh)

Babies and success
The only shit that I see on the internet
And I wonder if I'm ever more than that
Would you love me equally when I try and don't succeed?
But what you'll never know
Intrusive thoughts, no fucks, I wouldn't get parole
And I'm tired of pleasing everyone I know
(Can I be political?)

Let's say you're fake-crying at my wake
Would you make a stupid eulogy?
Like: She was amazing, an inspiration, almost famous
'Cause that's what you wanted me to be, well

She was a mess and she had regrets and
She let some people down
A wanna-be actress, insecure and jealous
A cunt when no one's around
And when I'm gone, if you think of me, play this
Am I wrong to beg for forgiveness?
She tried her best so please, just remember
Me for my intentions (ohh, ohh)

Running late (running late)
I say I'm leaving but I'm only half awake
And I wanna think that I'll be someone great some day
Wait, excuse me wile I just procrastinate, again

Demons that I face
I hate my skin, I hate the truth, I hate my waist
[?] Anxiety that I self-medicate
And I laugh when I see someone else in pain
Are you okay? No

Let's say you're fake-crying at my wake
Would you make a stupid eulogy?
Like: She was amazing, an inspiration, almost famous
'Cause that's who you wanted from me

But she was a mess and drugs [?]
She let some people down
A wanna-be actress, insecure and jealous
A cunt when no one's around
And when I'm gone, if you think of me, play this
Am I wrong to beg for forgiveness?
She tried her best so please, just remember
Me

She was a good friend, loved all her exes
She made her grandma proud
More than an actress, more than successes
Failures and body counts
And when I'm gone, if you care to replay this
You can make a bet, my heart was in the right place 'cause
I tried my best, it sure wasn't perfect
But don't forget I had good intentions