Suicide

I feel addicted to a love that never lived
I play pretend in bed, it's like you never left

Think it's worse in the morning
It's like I'm in mourning, but you're coming over later
Fuck, I want to ignore it
I'm sick from the drinking, but here I go, another shot

I'm fucked up waiting for you to come
And sit with me, just chat, you can play with my hair
I swear I'm having fun
Don't go, you can have every bit of my kingdom of shit
I just want it to be
Like when I had a personality
Remember when I made you laugh
As much as you made me die?
You are my suicide

Watching your pictures makes me feel the burn inside
You said you loved me, that was my favorite lie
It's getting darker and darker, but the pain isn't healing
For hours staring at the ceiling
Fuck, I want you to feel it
But all I do is kneeling
Praying to a God I don't believe in

I'm fucked up waiting for you to come
And sit with me, just chat, you can play with my hair
I swear I'm having fun
Don't go, you can have every bit of my kingdom of shit
I just want it to be
Like when I had a personality
Remember when I made you laugh
As much as you made me die?
You are my suicide

Call me sick, call me yours, I don't care what you do
You hurt me deep, but I still run back to you
You built me up just to watch me fall
Left me broken, but I still want it all

Back then, you used to make me crack up
And now all you do is say that I'm fucked up

Waiting for you to come
And sit with me, just chat, you can play with my hair
I swear I'm having fun
Don't go, you can have every bit of my kingdom of shit
I just want it to be
Like when I had a personality
Remember when I made you laugh
As much as you made me die?
You are my suicide