I Still Don't Realize

Try to sleep in my car
Dad's gone, he left me in parts.
I don't know if he's going to return.
No one more than myself
Collect my thoughts and forgive it
Guess I'm not a good one
2 a.m. and I'm still awake.
Since the moment he left me with no key,
Thoughts have flooded vacant minds.
I still don't realize
I need to take a new start
So diverged from the dreams I had in my head
I don't recognize myself,
I think like a man whose future is passed him
My mind is sick and empty I know,
I seek the way I'd better go.
Lies they bring nothing at all,
So kill your fears and your ghosts
Time to free your soul
I've got some problems and I want to cry
I know too well we're short on time
Why do we have to live and try to work until night
When we know that we all die?
I still don't realize
I need to take a new start
So diverged from the dreams I had in my head
I don't recognize myself,
I think like a man whose future is passed him
Now I think I realize,
I need to take a new start.
I'm not that far from the dreams I had in my head.
I will recognize myself,
I won't think like a man whose future is passed him
It'll all be good.