Blonde

Swear they treat me like a child
Fuck an inch, I gave a mile
Desperation filled denial
Working late, it's what's required
I can't sleep, but I'm so tired
I was gonna see some friends
But that would be wasting time
I'll just text, I'm sure they're fine, fine, f-fine

I wasn't thinking
She took it lying down
I came out swinging
A verbal concoction of doubts
But as I sit here
My lungs are all out of shout

I couldn't help, but fall apart (I've been hard on myself)
She saw it coming from the start (don't know how she could tell)
But now she's saying not to stop (got this far might as well)
Oh, I don't think I have the heart

Now I'm sulking by the telly
Imitating what is trendy
If I bleach blonde dye my hair
Will the people find me sexy?
I was gonna call a friend
Know I should've done already
Proper talk with them directly
But I never have the time, time, t-time

I wasn't thinking
She took it lying down
I came out swinging
A verbal concoction of doubts
But as I sit here
My lungs are all out of shout

I couldn't help, but fall apart (I've been hard on myself)
She saw it coming from the start (don't know how she could tell)
But now she's saying not to stop (got this far might as well)
Oh, I don't think I have the heart

Now I'm falling apart
She's got an eye for all that
Now she's calling me out
Don't wanna do it again

Fill up my cup, but it's still empty
Halfway full and that'll be plenty
Fill up my cup, but it's still empty
Halfway full and that'll be plenty

I wasn't thinking
She took it lying down
I came out swinging
A verbal concoction of doubts
But as I sit here
My lungs are all out of shout

I couldn't help, but fall apart (I've been hard on myself)
She saw it coming from the start (don't know how she could tell)
But now she's saying not to stop (got this far might as well)
Oh, I don't think I have the heart