Stoop Lights

I don't got hate for myself, I got nothing to say to me
I spend every day with me
I'm tired, I need an escape
It's hard to relate to me

Straight out the bottle, no chasing it
Look in my eyes, I'm a space cadet
Just a matter of time, I'm embracing death
Dead pool, you should place a bet

I'm in the bowels of war
But I feel no stress when I let it pour
But it all come back when I can't run back
Anything that even happened the night before

Always gonna fall on the sharpest sword
Always gonna sleep on the hardest floor
You can still see light in the darkest corner
But you still feel lost when it's unexplored

So I'ma see black till my eyes adjust
Till my time is up, till my mind is fucked
Limp around town on the irish crutch
With a belly full of whisky and self-disgust

Peekin' at my own dead body through splayed hands
As I grunt and I drool like a caveman
Fucked up, I'm a fool
With a room with a view of a wasteland

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Puke in my mouth, I got used to the flavor
Face on the porcelain, photo engraver
Memories fade and they float in the air
Like dusk casting shadows and sodium vapor

Waking up in situations
Feeling like I'm living in suspended animation
Guess I'm still sober on occasion
And that's enough for me to rationalize inebriation

I told you I ain’t right, you knew it going in
Just shut the fuck up if you wanna be a friend
I don’t want to stretch you more than you extend
I don’t want to spit in the hand that you lend

I did it to myself, I get what I deserve
Thoughts in my head, feel like a raw nerve
I'm lookin' for an answer, I don’t want to hurt but
I just want to sleep when I'm tired of earth

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong

Sit and watch the stoop lights flicker
Stoop lights flicker 'cause my eyes half closed
Eyes half closed 'cause the bottle half gone
Bottle half gone, stoop lights on strobe

Can't stop thinking, that's my mind on liquor
Mind on liquor, now my mind half gone
Mind half gone, 'cause I wish I had a family
Family ain't here, 'cause I been living wrong