Lapinou

When I
Was small enough
That I could accommodate
For us both
And we could share
Bare my soul full
And watch you take it all
So gladly

When I
Outgrew my grace
I saw your body splinter and break
Relishing your warped replies
Incandescent cries
Raise a voice
That only grieves and aches

I watch you rinse your mouth out in the kitchen sink
What am I supposed to think?
When you’re screaming like I can’t hear you
And maybe it’s a little selfish
But maybe I don’t want to

But now I
Am sure enough
That I can’t live like you
But somehow your painted niceties
Show up in the way
I brush my teeth

So I’ll quit it when you come around
Running when I catch the sound
Of your shoes on the last step
Miss a breath
I see it all in the way you leave
The way I'm watching myself bleed
How will I feel
(How will I feel)
When you die
(Feel when you die)
When you rot with me in mind