Cautiously Optimistic

I could
Say that I'm fine
Fall back on the
Old familiar line
Act like I'm living the dream
But what the hell
Does that even mean?

These days
I'm testing something out
This concept
Where I'm honest with myself
And I won't push everyone away
When I feel like I'm going to break

Sometimes
There's no such thing as
A happy ending
There's just an ending
And you'll decide if you
Start again

I've been
Learning that happiness
Doesn't just magically happen
You work for it
And I'm not there yet
But I'm cautiously optimistic

I was
A glass half-empty girl
Jaded and
Pissed off at the world
Ready to lash out any time
Unleash the poison I held inside

And I thought
I'd be satisfied if
I made everyone hurt
The way I did
Slap away all the
Hands that were reaching
To pull me away from the
Edge of the deep end

Sometimes
There's no such thing as
A happy ending
There's just an ending
And you'll decide if you
Start again

I've been
Learning that happiness
Doesn't just magically happen
You work for it
And I'm not there yet
But I'm cautiously optimistic
I'm cautiously optimistic

I was
Convinced for a moment
It was better if
I was alone but

It's the people you
Hold in your heart
Who will find you again
When you lose who you are and

Sometimes
There's no such thing as
A happy ending
There's just an ending
And you'll decide if you
Start again

I've been
Learning that happiness
Doesn't just magically happen
You work for it
And I'm not there yet
But I'm cautiously optimistic