delusional

I used to believe
You were my sanctuary
Why do you treat me
More like I'm your adversary?

I've been becoming
A shell of who I once was
But you never notice
You never notice

You push me
A little bit harder
Pull me
A little bit farther down
I don't see
The water is rising
Till I have already drowned

You picked out
Your shiniest chains and
Told me
They make me look beautiful
But really
You're holding me hostage
If you think that's love
You're delusional

How was there once a time
Your touch was all I needed?
Now you hold me so tight that
I am barely breathing

If trying to control me
Makes you feel more powerful
Then you are the weak one
You are the weak one

You push me
A little bit harder
Pull me
A little bit farther down
I don't see
The water is rising
Till I have already drowned

You picked out
Your shiniest chains and
Told me
They make me look beautiful
But really
You're holding me hostage
If you think that's love
You're delusional

If you think that's love

You became a slave your temper
And broke me, and broke me
Then you used your guilt like a weapon
But it showed me, it showed me
I can't waste away into nothing
And slowly let the old me die
Living in this lie

You push me
A little bit harder
Pull me
A little bit farther down
I don't see
The water is rising
Till I have already drowned

You picked out
Your shiniest chains and
Told me
They make me look beautiful
But really
You're holding me hostage
If you think that's love
You're delusional
You're delusional