Villain Or Hero

I've made mistakes
I've made a lot
Trust me, I'm painfully aware
Of everything I'm not

I'm sure you're no saint
But you're still throwing stones
You think that you've got me all figured out
Like a puzzle you solved
Instead of a girl
You barely know

I've been right on the edge of a knife
Caught between being a villain or hero
You have no idea what it's been like
Coming to grips with the fact
That I'm dangerously close
To becoming both

I'm so afraid
There's a monster in me
The damage would never be undone
If I let it off the leash

So I keep it caged in
As it eats me alive
And you have the nerve to act above it all
When I bet you're like me
Imperfect and bruised
Just trying to survive

I've been right on the edge of a knife
Caught between being a villain or hero
You have no idea what it's been like
Coming to grips with the fact
That I'm dangerously close
To becoming both

I'll go now
I don't want to deal with
The fallout
Your silence already screams
So loud
Like you think you're seeing who I
Really am

I've been right on the edge of a knife
Caught between being a villain or hero
You have no idea what it's been like
Coming to grips with the fact
That I'm dangerously close
To becoming both