I just can't see it anywhere

I am a shadow in the crowd
I was thrown just like a stone
But I'm still standing by myself
You could never understand me…

I feel burning in my brain
My dirty blood is running hot through my veins
The flesh is weak to support all this ache
You should never understand this… time!

By pulling strings you try to break me down
You think I'm chess piece you move forth and back
left to right, in black, in white
You should never be back again before you die…

I was a child so confused
I never prayed for a god
And you were close to me and made me feel so good
I shouldn't try to understand this…

I look at the white and it's turning into black
I feel the knife, it's sticking into my back
Anger, breath, I'm calling death, I'm bleeding out
My pain, you'll never understand this…

And my mind is not connecting to what's real… yeah!

I am feeling frozen deep inside
My robotic brain is offline
But now I know you don't care about my feelings
You have ignored me all the time

I just can't see it anywhere…

My reason is gone and my mind won't be back
My heart pumps fast when it goes for the last attack
Anger, breath, I'm calling death, I'm bleeding out
My pain, you'll never understand this…