Apologize

I just want to die
To not see all of this mess
To not crawl through this waste
And remember all of this past

This relief that I keep
To me it´s all that I could
Saving all good memories
It´s more, much more than I should

But tonight
All the tables have turned up
This time
I will not apologize

Want to live
Just to see all the beauty in your eyes
Back again
Don´t wanna to say goodbye

All the signs
Pointing up to this pouring man
And without learning a bit of lesson
I failed again