Runner

Do you feel it yet, bitch?
I could be anything I want
(Anything I want, anything I want)

I could be somewhere far away
(Far away)
I could make peace with what I'm not
(What, what, what, what)
I could be real again someday
Real again someday

I don't really know myself, I don't really believe myself
I don't really know why I see rotten things inside myself
I don't really understand a single thing that's said to me
I don't really care who you are or what you think of me!

But that's so fucking untrue when no one's listening
Put me under
I want to get away, I wonder

If I could make it
She's a runner
I hear she fucks with something other

You don't know the half of it
I'm just a pain that hurts too much
Inverted shadow time delay
Mirror image of something that I never really even was
Heterosanity able-bodied LCD display

But I'm
Lost in the world
So different
So unsuited for it
(Fuck)
So sick
So fucked up in it
(Fuck)
So doomed
So dead
So fuck

I'll get away and I'll be all that I dreamed of
I'll become everything that you were so scared I would be
I'll push the limits of what you thoughts I was capable of

You'll never see me again
I know what you did to me
Put me under
I want to get away, I wonder
If I could make it
She's a runner

I hear she fucks with something other
You don't know the half of it
This anger burns out too quick to hold
I wanna be engulfed but I'm out in the cold

Am I a character in some sick fantasy that's getting old?
What happens from now on if it turns out I never told you?
I want to start again I want this hurt to die

I want it to destroy me so I'll have a reason not to lie
I want to hear your voice and tell you it's the last time ever
I want to cut away, I want to separate and sever

I could be anything I want
I could be somewhere far away
I could make peace with what I'm not
I could be real again someday
Real again someday
I'm going to start again
I'm going to start again