Not The Way I Want To Be

Well I'd like to help you now but
I think I'm just too broken
To rebuild again would cost me more
of all these things I choke in

And it's not the way
I want it to be but
I'm blind in the places I thought
I could see And weak in the mind and
the soul of the man
And it's hard to explain cuz'
I don't understand
I guess I'm weaker than
I wanted to be weaker than
I thought I was
There's nothing in the world
that's free it's all too much for me
And it's not the way
I want it to be cuz' what
I wanted to be
I just can't find within me

Well I'd love to help you out
but how could you hear me now
When you see me fall
and watch it all
I don't think that
I know how

And it's not the way
I want it to be and
I wonder if you're cut by
the ways that I bleed
So I wish that
I could stand all alone
but there's no part of the body
that move on it's own
So I guess it's too late to complain
about you heard enough of the truth
that you figured it out
And it's not the way
I want it to be cuz' what
I wanted to be
I just can't find within me

This is not the way
I want it to be
I might be the only part of Christ
that somebody sees And
it's the only hope
I know how to give you
and it's just too much for me
to live up to And
I never wanted to be the one you see
I'm not the best one for showing
you the things
I believe and it's not the way
I want it to be but what
I wanted to be I just can't
find within me