i can't believe you're gone

Another year passes of hopes and derailments
Blood tests and Hi-Chews and loving the careless
Litigate the family, our father's condition
Better-man speeches whilst caveman traditions

But inches of glory and the leaps of true faith
No, they don't come easy but they honor the way
That another day over, a moment or a year
Bring me right back to the start with the same damn words I fear

So you retrace the steps and you dust the path for prints
There's a wasteland in you, is there something you've missed?
These grand self-obsessions are a way of hitting snooze
The truth is too dark and there is too much to lose

But inches of glory and the leaps of true faith
No, they don't come easy but they honor the ways
That another day over a moment or a year
Bring me right back to the start with the same damn words I feared
I can't believe you're gone

There's the car that we drove when you were still around
Some clothing and wallpaper, a Burger King crown
Sand bottles and essays outlive you, how wrong
This room is a nightmare, this room is my God

It's where I'll finish the wire, where my face hits the floor
Where I chose to leave, where the God met the whore
Some days, a giant, and others, a kid
And some days I'm too scared to even fucking begin
'Cause I can't believe you're gone

Well, maybe we should all move back in as a family
Torture each other during TV hours
Talk about money, our father's condition
And be real about that one true thing we're all missing

And you know it's a leap, but sometimes you wanna say
That tonight's the night and we're gonna be okay
These hope-filled lies, these unearned traditions
If you repeat them enough, you can live with somebody who's missing