Almost Close

How are you now?
Have you been sleeping?
Have you been eating the places that we used to?
I wish I could show you everything that I can't show you
How does she smell, my love?
Do you miss my Chanel, my love?

I moved to the city to try and find another thing
That could have been living to me
Our showing ended, but I couldn't watch
You're still reeling without me
As I'm watching you be a different tune

And I'll never be the same
Did you even know my middle name?
How could I have not known it would have ended in
Almost closе
Almost close
And when the curtain's drawn, I'm going homе
I think I kind of always knew you never really loved me
Almost close
Almost close

Remember I told you I was gonna die if we ever ended in
Almost close
Almost close
Well I'm here now on the freeway to who-knows-where
Lost in places, lost in things
Trying to find a place that doesn't remind me of
Almost close
Almost close

When I'm wiping off my makeup and the façade fades back
Back to me
You know, people will settle for anything just to say they have something
Just to feel like they have something
They kind of make me sick in a weird way
Do you know what I mean about
Almost close?
Almost close
Just far away enough
That loving you is dying to me
Almost close
Almost close

You know I sang these songs when I was
16 or 17
I dropped out of school for it
I walked in a void of white rooms for it
Thank you for making it all worth it
And now I'm 19, still unwanted
And clutching onto these songs for dear life
When they're the only thing I have anymore
When the only thing you have are these songs, the field changes
When the only thing you actually have are these songs, the field changes
And when the only thing you actually have is intangible, shit changes
And when the only thing you actually have isn't even tangible, this shit changes
Almost close

Further and further and further and further apart
Getting closer and closer and closer to just being spare parts
When the only thing you actually have isn't even tangible, shit changes