Again

I act out this part
This isn't happening
I'm dropping my cover
I'm cracking my shell
This isn't happening
I search all over
This isn't happening
I panic, i pace

I tried this
I tired every night
I tried this
I felt the rain
I tried this
I kept it true
I tried, i tried...

This isn't happening
I think about you
I dream, i fantasize
This isn't happening
You live inside of me
This isn't happening
This isn't happening

Those words are something i cannot kill

Have i done it again?
Have i done it all again?