Insecurities

Ay, yo, remember me? It's Rick Dahrouge, the losa'
The drug abusa', the kid who used to wanna shoot 'cha
Walkin' through the halls wit' my long hair like I didn't care
When all you other cornballs would just stare
Seventh grade, I got sent away to rehab
When I got back, a drug addict reputation's all I had
After that I cut off all my homies, chilled by my lonely
All the stupid teachers used to stone me
I wasn't only wild and bad, see I was sad too
But couldn't understand 'cause my parents was mad cool
Takin' Special Ed up in the rug room with some retarded kids
[Neptune?] was like a zoo
Ask E-Bass, he was in there with me too
And I got mad love for cus', 'cause he helped to get me through
I've been doin' the wrong damn things for so long
Had to write 'em all in poems and songs and move on

'Cause I got insecurities, some uncertainties
I'm perfect just like everyone else, I do it perfectly
The only one who's hurtin' me is me, you see
I go against my own will and indulge in impurities
'Cause yo, I got insecurities, I'm not too sure [?]
People always tellin' me that I need some therapy
The only man who's scarin' me is me, you see
I'm worried about me hurtin' you, but not you hurtin' me

Hyperactive attention deficit
Dirty [?] the kids your moms wouldn't letcha play with
But a lot of stupid shit I did, other kids did too
I used to try stuff that even young Slim would never do
I used to trip out off of all sorts of cough syrup
Believe me, I tried all the cheap highs you hear of
From Freon to gasoline to butane
I know that some of that shit had to fry my brain
But somehow, I managed to maintain some brain cells
Often found myself inside of a jail cell
When I got home, back in my room is where I dwell
You got fond memories? Well, my teen years was Hell
For the most part, I stayed clean, but smoked weed
And eat a lemon, seven-fourteen when things get extreme

'Cause I got insecurities, some uncertainties
I'm perfect just like everyone else, I do it perfectly
The only one who's hurtin' me is me, you see
I go against my own will and indulge in impurities
'Cause yo, I got insecurities, I'm not too sure [?]
People always tellin' me that I need some therapy
The only man who's scarin' me is me, you see
I'm worried about me hurtin' you, but not you hurtin' me

Now I hear sirens when I think thoughts of violence
Sometimes when I sit in silence, I start cryin', man
I ain't lyin'. Yo, I'm really fuckin' tryin'
Don't ever wanna take the blame for someone else dyin'
So, you see, kid? I ain't about killin' shit
But like Wu, when it comes to my neck, I must protect it
I wanna wreck shit every time that I'm neglected
It's hard to "forget it" and "dead it" when disrespected
So pray I do the right thing and stop striking
Quick as lightning, I'm like a stone cold viking
After all, it's the insecure man you should look out for
He's more prone to killin' your fam so lock your damn door

'Cause I got insecurities, some uncertainties
I'm perfect just like everyone else, I do it perfectly
The only one who's hurtin' me is me, you see
I go against my own will and indulge in impurities
'Cause yo, I got insecurities, I'm not too sure [?]
People always tellin' me that I need some therapy
The only man who's scarin' me is me, you see
I'm worried about me hurtin' you, but not you hurtin' me