Understand

[Chorus]

 Em
Girl, I hope you understand
 C
I wanted to hold your hand
            G                      
But I can't, wanted to be your man 
          B
back then
   Em                              C
And you knew I fell for you but you

Just broke my heart in two
       G
I was sad, mad and broken on my bed
 B
Hoping I get rid of all the voices 
in my head

[First Part]

       Em
I was opening a packet of an 
undeveloped med
            C
When I was met with a prescription 
of a bullet made of lead
            G
And when I woke up in an hour in a 
pool of my own sweat
            B
I said, "I swear to God I'll never 
even try to sleep again"
      Em
So instead I took my pen and started
 writing evidencе
             C
And when I started making sensе

I found that I had reached the end
          G
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends

You wanna bet you're just pretend?
               B
You're just a pet confined within 
the lines of writing

You're not shit
    Em                             
I thought I stopped my psychopathic
  C
 ways, I swear I did
          G                        
I said I talked to people 'bout the
        B
 problematic life I lived
              Em
They were my neighbors, razor blades
                C
And different flavored pills I hate
              G
Therefore I'm not sure, leave my 
last straw
        B
I'm so glad, stuck in the past, I 
said that

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[Chorus]

 Em
Girl, I hope you understand
 C
I wanted to hold your hand
       G                           
But I can't, wanted to be your man 
          B
back then
Em
So far I never held you with my arms
C
So it's hard to be the one you 
aren't
G
With instead filled with anxiety
B
Always was a part of me, guess I'm 
not cut out to be

[Second Part]

Em
Somebody 'cause it's not me
I'm not used to all the talk, it was
     C
 an introvert

That had converted feelings in the 
writing
        G
Used to cope with all my problems

Using notes and lots of rhyming
         B
Used to hope for better days 
whenever

That's 'bout make me crying
         Em
I'm not lying when I say that I 
would rather die than go back
C
To the times I would try be the guy 
the people know
       G
I was fighting with the demons 
hiding far beyond my eyelids
       B
On an island full of violence in my 
head that I could pilot
Em                                
Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies
       C
 turn gray
                               G
I feel it coursing through my veins
                       B
I said before I'm not okay
                        Em
But you don't listen anyway
                               C
You know I tried, you turned away
                 B              
You straight up lied right to my 
  G
face
                                B
You fucked my life, ruined my day

But you don't know, so I'll say

[Bridge]

Em                            C
Nothing can fill this silence, no 
one can love like I did
(You don't know so I'll say)
G                          B
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not 
fair, you still deny it
(So I'll say)
Em                            C
Nothing can fill this silence, no 
one can love like I did
(You don't know so I'll say)
G                          B
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not 
fair, you still deny it
(So I'll say)

[Chorus]

 Em
Girl, I hope you understand
 C
I wanted to hold your hand
        G                          
But I can't, wanted to be your man 
          B
back then
Em
Too bad I know I can't wake up
           C
Because I lost my weight and you 
don't give a fuck
       G                           
About me, this could be a dream, I 
        B
can't see

The things that you see, so please, 
oh

 Em
Girl, I hope you understand
 C
I wanted to hold your hand
       G                           
But I can't, wanted to be your man 
         B
back then
Em
You know I'll play along you
C
Were my home I wrote you songs
                G
And now you're dead to me 
effectively
   B                              Em
Removed yourself outside my dream