Incessant Surveillance

Everything I do.
Everything I say.
Everything I want.
Everything I was.
Dreams of disease.
Dreams I recall.
I cannot hide.
You see it all.
I try to hide from this thing inside of me.
It's a disease and I don't like what I see.
Nothing you did.
Nothing you said.
Nothing you need.
Nothing you were.
Dreams of release.
Dreams you defy.
Hurts you to see?
Just close your eyes!
I try to hide from the thing inside of me.
It's a release but I think it's killing me.