When I Ball

My momma said I didn't come to this world with tears
Instead I welcome her with open eyes and open ears
But came to grew a few things that couldn't be repaired
We saw a future in each other, bend and hope the fear
Some things you don't get to decide, it's just a phase you share
I used to try and hold the weight, that shit was need to bear
Watched uncles going on vacation for a couple years
When they came back, thеy needed clothes, they had no souvеnirs
I picked up the phone, they callin' us from correction
But nothin' is wrong, it's fillin' my heart with questions
My momma is home, I'm followin' her expressions
Her droppin' the tone, some things that she had to mention
I nodded, I listened, she had all of my attention
When you on your own, there's gonna be some directions
I need you to follow, and never make an exception
I love that she held me and wished I would be protected

You always used to tell me
I could be anything I wanna be
But it's hard to see, it's hard to be
You always used to tell me
I could be anything I wanna be
But it's hard to see, it's hard to be

On my sucker-free shit since I was a fetus
Pullin' up at the doc' in a Mazda sixty-sixty
And my dad was trippin' bad, hit the gas like car chase
Light blue in the back, momma gettin' late for pay
Dropped my sister at the bozo house, was twenty-three
Sweat drippin' down the face side river, runnin' free
Dark mornin' with the fog pourin' in and out the trees
Every moment through they eyes
Seemin', zoomin' lightspeed before me
She lost, but still want tragedy
Grittin' her teeth down to the root, pain, it like cavity
Hold her hands like they glue, radio channel on news
Valentines up on the calendar with X, they knew
I won't be a fuckin' baller like them posters on the wall
A little stain can be the beauty in it all
I missed out of trouble, must your luck was rubbin' off
Stickin' to you like Mars, you my cage, you my rock
Forever

You always used to tell me
I could be anything I wanna be
But it's hard to see, it's hard to be
You always used to tell me
I could be anything I wanna be
But it's hard to see, it's hard to be

Here I go, I'm gonna spread my wings
All grown up like go and look at me
You'll always be (you'll always be)
A part of me (a part of me)
Here I go, I'm gonna spread my wings
All grown up and blowing up, go look at me
You'll always be (you'll always be)
A part of me (a part of me)

That's why
A part of me, a part of me, a part of me
A part of me, a part of me, a part of me
That's why