Gently Broken

One day someone told me
People treat you exactly how they feel about you
Be blind if you want to be
I didn't know the weight of these words until you came along
You never did anything for me without begging me

I was a fool for believing you
If you just needed someone to use
You could use someone else

I was once a happy and cheerful person
But now I'm an empty person
And try as I might, there is no filling
Your apologies mean nothing to me
You felt good while I felt bad

I wish I could go back in time
To have never known you
I've always been empty
But at least I didn't feel like I do now

Someone once told me that I was kind and that I was broke
I don't know who or what I am
But I know that deep down I'm someone who cares a lot

I was in pieces before you found me
I swore that you would be the one to help me with every fragment
You took a piece and stabbed me in the back
Once again I was naive
I started to sweat cold
And the lights started to go out

Chaos and healing share the same roof
You are your own chaos and your own cure
The future scares me
I don't know what to expect from him
It's like a box full of surprises

Time passes and the leaves fall
The cold arrives and in the nights it increases
I cried my heart out, silently
It's just too heavy to handle

I was prepared but, but still hurts
I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Nothing feels heavier than unsaid words
So tired and drained, but still trying
Some wounds will never heal
It's no use shedding tears
Since you won't come back
But I still wait for you