Trying

Kink it up
Invisible handcuffs locked on me
Been praying for my period all week
And relief that I just can't see

I question everything
My focus, my figure, my sexuality
And how much it matters or why it would mean anything
I can't keep it together
I've been better
I've been thinking about it every night

I'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying
All of mine

But I kink it up
There's no flawless education just a stupid degree
The feeling of growing so far from myself
I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach

So brush it off, cause I wanted that
There's no dusting up
When you walk like that, here's a shit
There's a wick that will keep yourse
lf from checkers
All these loaded questions gonna eat you alive

I'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying
All of mine

If it counts for anything
I didn't want to
I'm just looking for clarity
To help me get through
If you're set in your ways
Well given that too
It's absolute that
I can break it down for you
To feel the beast
To leave on leash
To come right back to you

I'm trying, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying all the time, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
Trying, trying all of mine
Why you mind
Won't lie, why you mind