six feet under

When I'm gone I hope it takes no thought at all
To reminisce at our old photos, stuck to rotted wall
Picturesque, full of lovely dreams
I'd never wanna let 'em know how the mighty would fall
Days at the start line, simple, fragile, frail
Somehow the dark room washed out their every detail
When did our hearts lose pulse and tip to scale

Who was I back at the start? Young, foolish, idealistic
Thinking I could take what was perfect and: Fix it
Sinking even lower, life was good, now it's twisted
Deals with the devil that I should have resisted

(Watching, waiting, conscience fading)

Romance-speak like: Hopes and dreams are just one
Reality is made of many, I'm out-gunned

(Watching, waiting, my self-hating)

Never figured why I was surprised to find
Half-truths are an alibi for straight-up lies

Now feels like I'm singing six feet underground
This heart is beating without any sound
There are no second chances for me
Nobody is likely to come back around
Upon the ashes of what once grew here
I'll plant a seed and depart by nightfall
Was I the hero no one believed?
Was I the villain after all?

Innocent days are in on a distant hindsight
And the imminent nostalgia, it hits and blind-sides me
What remains couldn't match the dream
Or explain how it wall went so down-stream

(Watching, waiting, conscience fading)

More alone now than ever before
A wretched God of a mess on a dusty castle floor

(Watching, waiting, my self-hating)

Good to be the hate-sink, I can take the blame
Collect power from the pointless pain

People wanna see the beauty where there is none
In a world that doesn't compensate anyone
Afraid of ugliness, they back away and run
Look at me directly we are not done

Sometimes to do what's right, we have got to fight
Tooth and nail to break rules and chase the night
I can't stop the noise, I can't sleep tonight
Would you catch me here, need a sign?

(Watching, waiting)
(Conscience fading)
(My self-hating)
(Isolating)

Shade, kuchite yuku risou no hana
kawakikita mitsu no aji
ano koro no yuutopia ga
yume kakushi ni atta mitai
doko made ikeru ka na
barabara ni sareta hiiroo
kagayaki no kurayami ni
ochi nagara saisei suru

Jump, fall stay alive, just wanna save a life
Jump, fall, stay alive, just wanna save a life
Jump, fall, left behind, just give me one more try
Jump, fall, left behind, just give me one more try

Feeling less of a human like everyday I've been losing
A little more of me, I'm sorry but this beggar is choosin'
To run away at the eleventh hour living in infamy
There is nothing left here for me
There is nothing dear to me
'Cause I wanna escape
And nothing gets better
Until I make the decision to double it down
And double triple the stakes

I'm never gonna give up, I'm invincible
Nobody stay in my way I'm a criminal
Unwinnable battles cover the city in syllables
In a silence so deafening
Never be ever be anyone else

Brave, hito ga hito wo kitsuzukete
ai toka yume kitsuzukete
Still dreaming you'll accept me
Imperfect, in shambles, it hurts, but I want you to smile