Unalive

It starts with just a thought within
A wish that rode on mellow wind
Begins and ends with hello and goodbye
I’ll take a chance to see what we could be
The past in distant memory
To another world
At last I’ll grasp that promised life

But the high is over sooner than it began
Stay alive and sober, all a part of the plan
I arrived a soldier in a far-off land
With a four-leaf clover in this scarred right hand

You can
Over and over, rewrite
Felt the closure with every night
So you’re gonna go and let it all melt away into that formless storm of white?

On the winds of desperation
Flying for all this world to see
Though I make do all despite it
Fate is hard to hide it’s
Always been decided for me
Numbing pain is numbing happiness
Something anyone can find
Pushing on
For resolve
That is mine
Alone
It’s hopeless, though this soul can say I tried
To move forward, the lore is I must
Be void inside

Recalling all the days we met
A place that I belonged, and yet
My world was built of walls of endless height
But it was melody that set me free
This world ain’t seen the best of me
I'm invincible
For just one moment, I can fight

Not hesitant, fast-paced hot to cold
I found a present, past, future in store being sold
Unpleasant
Resentment, the more you're told
Deep inside of the binds of stories of old

Burning through every page
Keep you learning to envy the stage
All the while, with a vile and discerning smile
I'm planning how I'm gonna break the cage

On winds of desperation
Flying for all this world to see
Though I make do all despite it
Fate is hard to hide, it’s
Always been decided for me
Numbing tears and heartache, sorrow, hate
Running endlessly through time again
Still deprived
Unalive
Like I’ve always been
My home
A place I’ll never know until I'm satisfied
To move forward, the lore is I must
Be void inside

The soul is divided
Colder inside, the dice
Roll is decisive
Must have it nice
A gorgeous device
To trick and entice, it’s got a price

Playing it straight
The cards I create
A heart’s nothing but dead weight
Diamonds or spades
The lies and charades
They never gonna change

Lie to myself
Reject any and all help
Betting all of my chips, let ’em fall to hell
Blood, sweat cannot stop the thoughts invading
Nobody’s waiting, after all
Is said and done
There’s nowhere left to run

Forget the Sun
Rest in peace and appease the beast
Never thought I’d beg the beats to cease
Talking head rotting I don’t gotta be whole
Don’t want a dead body, don’t need no soul
> Take control

Our world is turning once again
For that reason I still sing
And we’ve shed so many tears by now
Though I’d never dare to change a thing
Days of laughing and crying, feeling like dying
All became a part of me
We won’t have to wait for long
Waiting from beyond
What more could there be?

Numbing pain is numbing happiness
Something anyone can find
Pushing on
For resolve that’s truly mine

On the winds of desperation
Flying for all this world to see
Though I make do all despite it
Fate is hard to hide
I won’t let it decide who I’ll be
Numbing pain is numbing happiness
Though you know it’s all worth fighting for
Every means
To an end
Is an open door
Your home
Is more than just a place you're never satisfied
I’ll move forward toward something rewarding
By your orders, I’ll never be soaring
I'm ignoring the lore 'cause I won’t
Be void inside

Mou modorenai
In death, I'm somehow more alive