20 Odd Years

I ask for an abundance of things
But I always seem to get
Skipped over
I didn't surround myself with
Things that made me happy
They just didn't make me sad
I looked around
To see the things
In my life

I was in love
With so many of them
You see
But none of them were me

Chorus:
It's been 20-odd years
Since I've seen the sunrise
It's been 20-odd years
Since I felt I was alive
And I've never spent
One day outside my mind
It's been 20-odd years
And I've never lived one day
In my whole life

How could you ever think
I could look up to you?
For all those things
That you said and you did
The things you were never
Man enough to do
And I look down to see
The feet that crushed my dreams

Then I begin to see
Those feet belong to me

(Chorus)

I have all these people
In my life tellin me
"You can't be"
But every song seems to be
About me in everything
I think and everything I dream
And everything that needs to be
I look up to see my people
Who need me and I need them so bad

I'd say
I just wanna live one day

(Chorus)

I've spent 20-odd years of my life
Never living a day alive