Face First

I failed myself again today
Liar, liar, it's always been that way
I fell face first while I was over thinking
Cloud my mind again, block it all away

Insecure and undeserving
Of all the love you were reserving
Negative and assuming
I'm numbing myself just to keep quiet

I couldn't commit when it knew all along it would end up like this
I can't pretend that I don't want all my secrets back
My own reflection won't look me in the eyes
Because it knows who I could've been but you killed him, you killed me

I tried to change for you, faked a smile and attitude
I never wanted it to be like this, I never wanted to feel a fucking thing

I lost the key to purposely keep everything locked away inside of me
Still question myself, still hating myself, still everything I deserve

Another blow to the head, slapped in the face by the things that you said
This curse burns infinite, bound by the chains anchored in my head

And so it begins every single good thing will come to an end
Nothing ever lasts when every light in my path is burned out by my past