Talking To Myself

When I'm bored
I get drunk and I smoke cigarettes
Pretend my life's worse than it is
And feel sorry for myself

When I'm bored
I text anyone who will text me back
'Cause I want attention, want it bad
But it's not enough to help

I guess there's something wrong with me
Think everybody sees it too
'Cause I'm the biggest hypocrite I've ever met
Yeah, I'm a little sick of waking up like this

It's hard to be alone
When I don't really like me
I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely
Oh, I'm scared of where I'll go
If I don't say the right things
'Cause I keep talking to myself but not very nicely

I keep talking to myself but not very nicely
I keep talking to myself, talking to myself

Now I'm here
And I'm just drinking more alcohol
Only way I can deal with it all
'Cause I can't do face to face

You would think
That I'd open up to someone who
Wants to love me but I'd rather choose
To push them far away
'Cause I don't know if I'll change